My Nutshell: Fears

Some things everyone should know about me....

- I was born a month late and almost died when my mom was in labor.

- I was in a terrible car accident when I was 17 and I suffer from memory loss.

- I am extremely hard headed and will not listen to anyone.

- I will not take pain medicine unless I have too. Fear of becoming an addict like my father.

- I have a horrible temper when its provoked. My mom says I get it from my father. If I get pissed off you better watch the hell out.

- Other than anger I really don't show emotions. I mean yes I'll laugh but who doesn't. I never cry. I have a brick wall that's so high that if it ever gets knocked down I'll have to put in an institute.

- My father died when I was 5 from complications of drugs and alcohol. He was an alcoholic and drug addict. He died the day after his 33rd birthday.

- My mom is also a recovering alcoholic. She has been sober for 19 years now.

- I have an absolute fear of heights. I can't even stand on a step ladder without freaking out.

- I have a fear of whipped cream. Yes, whipped cream.

- I am not good in relationships. When I feel things are getting too close I end the relationship. I have commitment issues.

- My mom has never shown any real affection towards me so in return I don't really know how to show it.

- I never say "I Love You" back to people when they say it to me. Nor will I say it first.

- My mom always tells me that I am exactly like my father. Except for my temper and my looks I am nothing like him.

- I am afraid to have kids because I don't want to be like my mom with my kids.

- My mom married my step-dad only 7 months after my dad died and I still resent her for it.

- No matter how hard I try nothing is never good enough.

- I am afraid that I will never go anywhere in life.



<3 AJ