For 19 years I've had this friend, this friend who's been there through thick and thin, but recently she has not been there and I don't know how much longer I can take. I am constantly depressed, it hurts to eat, my stomach constantly hurts, and I feel as though this friendship ending has been harder on me then its been for her. I can't function and all I want to do is cry. I am NOT this person.
Last night I tried to talk to her via AIM and I was ignored. Which is only proving that everything I said was right. I will take no excuses. Anything at this point would just be awkward. Its been so long that I feel like we could never pick up where we left off. Life as friends would never be the same. I hate feeling this way. I have NEVER felt like this. Does this mean I am actually a normal person? Whatever normal is. I can't continue to feel like this. Its not healthy. I don't know anyway around it. I can't deal with my feelings like a normal person, because I've never really had any feelings. I thought that she would be in my life forever. I know now that I was wrong and nothing can ever change that.
I can't even end this blog because I am so upset. Stay tuned.
Ok so you put out a whole mess of emotions here....stop and slow down and realize that you both grow as people and think yes you are hurt now but maybe you need the space to both work on yourselves and live a little....ive seen friendships do that for a year or two eveen and you learn to value what you had...i know you're sad but try not to see this as a negative and just remember that by not taking care of you that nobody wins....Lova ya twin and remember im always a text away!!
ReplyDeleteThank you and I know you are.
ReplyDeleteWhat she said.
ReplyDeleteKid, you're better than this. Shape up!
She will get over it. When she gets knocked down by her "new friends", she'll come crawling back to you and you'll be able to hold that in your hand whether or not you want to deal with it again. It hurts. It hurts a lot, but soon it won't bother you anymore.
You have to do what's better for Shasha. Not anyone else but you. Just remember that.